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8月7日 我的超模比赛很成功，目前看来。。我很高兴，因为我参加2006世界顶尖超模比赛，我是唯一一个选手有sina全程跟踪专访和视频采访的。而且，最近一个国外的有名的模特事业经纪人说我是全球唯一一个音乐才女（作曲+器乐演奏家）与t台模特摄影模特的完美结合。这个评鉴真的太高了。我受宠若惊。而且我为大赛制作的新浪博客被人黑了。一直也无法打开，还有激动星影视公司和评委们都联系了让我拍摄电影的女1号。。。。我怎么一脚从幕后被踹到了台前？？一直想不通。。。
自从与我家亲爱的小法在一起之后，生活变得无比顺利，甚至我忘记了从前所有的感情生活，好像是初恋也是结束。女人的一生是从遇到了一个好男人开始，而不是把遇到一个好男人作为终点。还好，我在很年轻的时候已经开始了辉煌的一生。
最新接受了北京国色模特学校的校长，还有美国和法国各地的朋友帮助我联系海外培训事务；这样以后我就可以做国际实业，也不用担心以后根小法分开两地不在一起的危机了。但是这样的生活压力非常大，而且我始终处于风口浪尖，任何事情都是领头羊，换句话说，就是被枪打得出头鸟，好了有人眼红（比如博客被黑，因为流量太火，连组委会都说修竹视网络最红的模特）；如果你做不好，那很多人等着看你的失败，从而狰狞的奸笑。
其实我是一个很亲和的人，我愿意和所有的女人是姐妹，甚至有双性恋情向，但是女人们不这么认为我。何况我是一个面貌表情比较冷莫的女人，大部分时候又是所有人中最幽默和自嘲的女人，也许，你只能选择坐我的好朋友或者敌人，而没有第3个选择。。。
老爸告诫我不要在顺利的时候骄傲而忘却冷静，而我告诉他，我从来不是顺利的人，我没有天生顺利的人生。我的人生是从我一个人闯荡、自由的那天开始，换句话说，我的生命是从两年前才开始的。因为那时候，我离开了驻了20多年的“家“得到了我梦寐以求的自由和自我。因为终于我一个人掌握我的人生，我想做任何事情，都可以了。所以我很迅速的成功了。人的压抑在一瞬间爆发以后，是原子能。 1月17日 I m missing you喜欢和爱的区别，你告诉我你的理解，喜欢是即使非常喜欢一个人，你还是可以喜欢另一个人；爱是哪怕不是非常喜欢，却无法再爱另一个人。
我以前根本不知道这就是爱的感觉。
我终于可以拒绝所有的诱惑。只要看到你的双眼。
现在非常想你，非常想。
我开始害怕如果有一天没有你。
如果爱情的保鲜期限过去，我还是想把它做成标本，放在你给我的书里做书签。
希望有一天你跟我的感觉一样，爱，很难。但是也很简单。
我爱你。 1月11日 finally u come backFinally u will come back tomorrow
many times I am the weeping cat
I need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
love is all around
sinece the day u leave me
can u feel how much I miss u
since the day u leave me.....
plz dont let me feel heartbroken
coz I love u 12月1日 predestined relationshipthe Buddhe said:someone you must to meet whatever u will meet.He said also:if u find someone u really have feeling dor him(her) whatever u should with him(her) forever.
I often meet some things that is very strange,many people couldnt meet forever.I imagined what staff I was in my prelife?I believe the destination very much.some things u always cant get the answer we can only explain by Buddhism.
I deeply agree the worlds:if someone u should to meet and someone is belongs to u that is the god bestow u.maybe u would encounter see her(him) then...become a part of ur life.
before now I always believe the "one eyes love",but now I think that is wrong.that is not predestined relationship,coz that person who have no comunication just only one kind of body passion.
the predestined relationship can tell me all the result.But I have another worlds:the god destow the predestined relationship to u,how deeply it is just depend on urself. 11月29日 I fear one kind of hurtone of my best friend said that I have never love someone.And I always look like ignore man.chinese women sometimes depend on this to protect themseves.I always protect other people as my mum\my friend but no one who is I want want to protect me.a person often hurt people wouldnt need true protection.
maybe I hurt someone in the past time.when I finished my first love story I have never want to love someone.no one know how deeply disappointment in my mind.that is not the really hurt. i have forgoten it at all.hence I ignore anythings about love.I cant regard the love is the sause of my life,in fact I hope when I finish my life I just only remember a person.
many times I feel hurt(upset) when I found the slight but real feeling apeared,I cant really love someone.I fear the hurt.it is always very difficult to control myself to inmagin.when the feeling comes to me,it is impassible slow.then I feel the hurt soon.I know the reason:on no is the same as me,he doesnt have the same passion,or hight or low the love's extent,I always find I am the highter extent.
and then,the end.if the sky would gives me one medicine to heal my phobia I will reback her all my smile.I believe it is your hug... 11月24日 why I always get sick?every morning when I get up I always feel bad in my throat.when I was a little baby my throat was not good.the doctor said:"u will not become a singer." UPSET!! I am a musician but I cant sing?
in fact the doctor is wrong.thanks for the specail throat,it let me have a special vioce when i sing and I can write many music just for my vioce coz I am composer.:))))Everything is like this,when u dont fit to do something u just do that.
i remember some days when i wake up i feel so good,even my throat is okay~then i feel fear...maybe i can only live in some pain no matter what,body's,feeling's,soul's,love's... 11月22日 if tomorrow start i without unow i found anything can let me moved...
some friends are my treasure.But how about love?whether the love can supports u do anything or something eles support ur love?
i told one of my friend"i dont want lose my true heart".sometimes i found that i fall in love,the love comes very fast even one second..but im afraid the feeling would go away soon.
if tomorrow start i without u. |
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